In most situations, I'll let you know my opinion in a heartbeat--no apologies, no hesitation at all. However, there are a few subjects that I share my opinion with almost noone. This came up a few weeks ago in a conversation with SJ because I had gotten upset because he kept returning to a subject that I disagreed with him that he had never really gotten the information on how I actually felt about it at all.
A few hours ago, I shared a small portion of my opinion and testimony of the gospel in a comment on a blog that I love to follow. I feel so much anxiety because of it. (Yay for going out of my comfort zone?) I eventually decided to push harder on that reluctance and share a little more instead of closing up again.
In middle school, I had a real-life experience of people getting misconceptions about my church. That, combined with how I practically live on the internet, has a lot to do with never voicing an opinion that I feel would be wildly controversial--religion, politics, certain musicians, Twilight... They are all internet argument powder kegs and I have stayed away from them as much as possible. I think I need to change that, at least a little, to avoid the situation that sparked this blog post in the first place.
Religion: I am Mormon. There are a couple of things that I have trouble with (some members, stance on homosexuality, etc), but right now, this is the best place I can be for me, personally. I subscribe to a very live and let live kind of lifestyle--if you aren't actively hurting others or even yourself, I don't care what you're doing. If our personalities are compatible, it doesn't matter at all what kind of life you live, I will be your friend.
The conversation that I had with SJ? It was about Twilight. I had casually voiced my opinion once or twice (I LOVED the writing style but was disappointed in how it ended up and hated the main character--bottom line, I kind of liked it and suspect that people who say they hate it actually hate the rabid fans and know nothing of the book). SJ voices his dislike of "sparkle fairies" every time Twilight is brought up, it seems. I don't really like his behavior because he hasn't even read the books or watched the movies (to be fair, I've only watched the first movie, but I've read all the books).
I feel like I've always leaned more towards the "don't knock it til you try it" stance or, more clearly, a strong opinion is earned from having more exposure to the subject-you don't get to tell people what to do in a certain situation unless you've been through it. <examples> I have no experience with homelessness, so I withhold almost all comments. I do have experience with psychological abuse and can be vocal about it if I think it will help someone else. I am an expert on which books I like and regard you with skepticism if you repeatedly tell me that my life isn't complete if I haven't read a specific book (especially if I've already decided not to read it because of what I have learned about the literature). </examples>
It's hard to share my opinions when they're not inconsequential, like what foods I like or don't like and my current favorite tv show...
Blogging is where I learned to share my opinion. It helped that (at first) my blog was public, but unknown to my family.
ReplyDeleteI have a very different opinion than most of my family on religion and politics, so I'd learned to keep quiet. (I'd rather be quiet and have a relationship than voice my thoughts and lose friends.)
I'm glad you're voicing your opinions, sharing what you know, and being honest about what works for you. Letting at least some people see the more consequential parts of yourself.
(And I still drop by your blog every once in a while - just wanted you to know.)
I'm so happy you left a comment! You and Single Dad Laughing are my most thought-provoking and informative (about things I never would've thought about) blogs and I love that you still read my blog =)
DeleteGood for you to stand up for how you feel! I also struggle with voicing my opinions on hot topics. And I agree that opinions on those topics should be reserved for the appropriate situations. It's important for people to know there are valid opinions other than theirs, too, though.
ReplyDeleteHannah my dear. This now makes so much more sense about the conflicting short answers I've gotten about your feelings on Twilight. The most consistent thing I've heard before this is that you were dissappointented by it.
ReplyDeleteI know opening yourself up can be hard, but I personally think its worth it in the end. (If nothing else think of everything you can learn about yourself!)
Congrats on getting to the point that you could make this post!